[Again she has to say those stupid things, things normally he wouldn't care about but somehow she manages to dig under his skin.

So he can only bark a hollow laugh as he looks back at her.]

Regret, Benedikta.

[Really, it was more than that. Remorse. Anger. Grief. Whatever coldness he managed to muster fades.]

Of all the people I wanted to save, you were the only one that really mattered to me. [Personally. His only selfish wish.] I was pissed, not only at Barnabas, but at myself because you're right—I should have just dragged you out instead.