[ Astarion's throat suddenly feels quite dry, and a feeling like panic rises within him. They're words he's said a thousand times, to a thousand gullible souls. Words that were so simple once, and yet mean so much now.
He realizes he feels this way because he does mean them now. It's so obvious that Xenk does too, but Xenk has a honesty he's never been able to claim in kind. Xenk is beautiful and kind and deserves someone who can say it back.
It catches in his throat and he realizes he's gone a rather long pause without saying anything. He can't quite hold Xenk's gaze when he finally responds. ]
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[ Astarion's throat suddenly feels quite dry, and a feeling like panic rises within him. They're words he's said a thousand times, to a thousand gullible souls. Words that were so simple once, and yet mean so much now.
He realizes he feels this way because he does mean them now. It's so obvious that Xenk does too, but Xenk has a honesty he's never been able to claim in kind. Xenk is beautiful and kind and deserves someone who can say it back.
It catches in his throat and he realizes he's gone a rather long pause without saying anything. He can't quite hold Xenk's gaze when he finally responds. ]
Yes, I...I think after all of this, I must.