[His hand does find hers, only because she lets it.
Because as much as this feels like last time, this isn't the same. Not for her. Tonight, it isn't because he had failed her, but because Benedikta feels as if she has failed someone else. She tried and tried, and yet, still could not find a way to keep someone safe. That someone had swatted her hand away when she had tried to help... She thought she knew what was best not because she truly believed she was the person who could help her, but because she had seen herself in this woman.
A woman who had been chained down to another man at one point, and then it had all spiraled from there. Forced her to see things in this person that she refused to see in herself.
...]
Just...
[Her voice breaks, but she squeezes his hand, almost like she doesn't want to go... but she knows that if she doesn't, things will only get worse. After all the strides that they have made to get here now, it would simply undo it all as soon as she started pinning the blame on him again.
She can't... not tonight... not after what she's come to realize.]
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Because as much as this feels like last time, this isn't the same. Not for her. Tonight, it isn't because he had failed her, but because Benedikta feels as if she has failed someone else. She tried and tried, and yet, still could not find a way to keep someone safe. That someone had swatted her hand away when she had tried to help... She thought she knew what was best not because she truly believed she was the person who could help her, but because she had seen herself in this woman.
A woman who had been chained down to another man at one point, and then it had all spiraled from there. Forced her to see things in this person that she refused to see in herself.
...]
Just...
[Her voice breaks, but she squeezes his hand, almost like she doesn't want to go... but she knows that if she doesn't, things will only get worse. After all the strides that they have made to get here now, it would simply undo it all as soon as she started pinning the blame on him again.
She can't... not tonight... not after what she's come to realize.]
Step back.
[Because here comes the wind.]