But it's not a thought that she has the space to linger on... not when he holds her so tight, so close, and not when she wishes he would just crush her to him and not ever free her again.
She dips her head, burying it in his chest, seeking the strength that comes from his body, his warmth, his scent... everything. Once, it would have made her feel weak, would have made her hate herself for wanting it so much, but now, it's the only thing that keeps her tethered and grounded in the present.
Even when he is also the only person that puts her at risk of falling back into the past just as easily.]
Cidolfus...
[The way that she says his name is tentative and slow, like she's scared she might either disintegrate into aether or burst into flames at what she is about to say next.]
... You were right.
[Fuck. She wants to shatter her skull and rip off her skin for saying that.]
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But it's not a thought that she has the space to linger on... not when he holds her so tight, so close, and not when she wishes he would just crush her to him and not ever free her again.
She dips her head, burying it in his chest, seeking the strength that comes from his body, his warmth, his scent... everything. Once, it would have made her feel weak, would have made her hate herself for wanting it so much, but now, it's the only thing that keeps her tethered and grounded in the present.
Even when he is also the only person that puts her at risk of falling back into the past just as easily.]
Cidolfus...
[The way that she says his name is tentative and slow, like she's scared she might either disintegrate into aether or burst into flames at what she is about to say next.]
... You were right.
[Fuck. She wants to shatter her skull and rip off her skin for saying that.]