[She breathes in, lungs trembling, when he kisses her, as if that answer was the very air she needed to breathe, and they are finally filled.
And yet, there is a sadness that lingers on both ends behind the light smile.
For her, it is that she can only now so clearly see how hollow her life had been. How empty his absence had made her feel. Now that her heart has allowed itself to fill with something besides burning hatred and contempt for everything and everyone around her, it makes that past feel so bleak in comparison.
She hates herself for it.
And the only thing that she hates herself more for than that in this moment is that she was not there to see that initial shift. To be the one to make him smile like this before they had to go and break each other down.
She kisses him again anyway, so devastatingly tender, this one laced with something of an apology.]
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And yet, there is a sadness that lingers on both ends behind the light smile.
For her, it is that she can only now so clearly see how hollow her life had been. How empty his absence had made her feel. Now that her heart has allowed itself to fill with something besides burning hatred and contempt for everything and everyone around her, it makes that past feel so bleak in comparison.
She hates herself for it.
And the only thing that she hates herself more for than that in this moment is that she was not there to see that initial shift. To be the one to make him smile like this before they had to go and break each other down.
She kisses him again anyway, so devastatingly tender, this one laced with something of an apology.]
I'm a little jealous, you know...