[She idly pokes at another piece of her pancake before eating it.]

It really was admiration at first. I'd wanted your approval on just about everything I did.

[If the way that she ran to him every time she learned something new to show him was any indication of that. She'd wanted her Lord Commander to notice her, and tell her she'd done a good job.]

And then I suppose, at some point, it turned into wanting something more... A stupid girl I was back then.