[Is he anxious? Alhaitham considers this, the definition of what that word means and compares it to the... feelings that he is experiencing. Anxiousness, as he understands it, comes from not knowing about certain outcomes or happenings. Of not knowing what to anticipate next.
...back in Sumeru, most things had always been fairly clear cut. Do this or that. Succeed in a task or fail at it. Even his job as scribe had been that way, when one boiled it down to the basics. The only exception to all of this had perhaps been the events surrounding the coup, but it'd been cushioned by the fact that he was still in his home, the place he'd grown up in and had come to know like the back of his hand. No matter what he did, there was always that degree of comfort present.
But here, in this world that is not Teyvat, in this place that is not Sumeru, he does not have any of those luxuries, those certainties. And he is perhaps seeing now how that unsettles him in a way that he hasn't felt before.]
...I wouldn't discount the possibility. [He says, still quiet, arms having come up to cross over his chest at this point.] I know books are never the end all as a bastion of information, but I continue to find myself lacking in the fundamental understanding of this world even after all this time. What happened to you was a prime example of that lack of knowledge, and I am constantly being reminded of that.
[The explanation sort of just... comes out of him there, partly because he feels a need to elaborate, but also because he just—maybe it'll make sense to Kaveh, if he tries to describe the chain of events that lead to this. Kaveh's always been good at things like these, after all.]
they are...
...back in Sumeru, most things had always been fairly clear cut. Do this or that. Succeed in a task or fail at it. Even his job as scribe had been that way, when one boiled it down to the basics. The only exception to all of this had perhaps been the events surrounding the coup, but it'd been cushioned by the fact that he was still in his home, the place he'd grown up in and had come to know like the back of his hand. No matter what he did, there was always that degree of comfort present.
But here, in this world that is not Teyvat, in this place that is not Sumeru, he does not have any of those luxuries, those certainties. And he is perhaps seeing now how that unsettles him in a way that he hasn't felt before.]
...I wouldn't discount the possibility. [He says, still quiet, arms having come up to cross over his chest at this point.] I know books are never the end all as a bastion of information, but I continue to find myself lacking in the fundamental understanding of this world even after all this time. What happened to you was a prime example of that lack of knowledge, and I am constantly being reminded of that.
[The explanation sort of just... comes out of him there, partly because he feels a need to elaborate, but also because he just—maybe it'll make sense to Kaveh, if he tries to describe the chain of events that lead to this. Kaveh's always been good at things like these, after all.]