And yet, I cannot believe that to be the case for if one admits that, what then?
[ Perhaps Sherlock could do so in private, where no one can see him or judge his weakness, his decreasing worth. Mycroft would say he's throwing a tantrum and to grow up. Sherlock should move on and leave it all behind, but he can't. He stubbornly holds onto all the ways he's failed, and he can't think of anything improve his situation. ]
What would that do? It would not solve anything. It does not provide a direction in which to find answers. It does not make me into the man more people believe me to be or should become. It does not dismiss the specter which haunts my every breath and thought.
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[ Perhaps Sherlock could do so in private, where no one can see him or judge his weakness, his decreasing worth. Mycroft would say he's throwing a tantrum and to grow up. Sherlock should move on and leave it all behind, but he can't. He stubbornly holds onto all the ways he's failed, and he can't think of anything improve his situation. ]
What would that do? It would not solve anything. It does not provide a direction in which to find answers. It does not make me into the man more people believe me to be or should become. It does not dismiss the specter which haunts my every breath and thought.