[ Astarion watches him go but he doesn't pursue him. All he wanted he was to get rid of him after that and it worked. After he's thinks he's gone he slams the door, his hands shaking as he does. He's left with the strangest mixture of numbness and anger, exhaustion and left over arousal that lingers maddeningly still.
When he ends up seated on the floor, hugging his legs to his chest and burying his face against them, he doesn't really know. But he hates that too because he should just brush this off no different than dust on his coat and move on with this evening. He doesn't know why he became quite so vulnerable and why this bothers him so much or even at all and he hates that too.
But he'll pick himself up off the floor soon enough. Just a moment.
And then he won't learn a single thing from this interaction! (Astarion truly out here "like that sign can't stop me because I can't read.") he'll almost certainly try this again with someone else. ]
Not me like Alucard just reload your last save!!
When he ends up seated on the floor, hugging his legs to his chest and burying his face against them, he doesn't really know. But he hates that too because he should just brush this off no different than dust on his coat and move on with this evening. He doesn't know why he became quite so vulnerable and why this bothers him so much or even at all and he hates that too.
But he'll pick himself up off the floor soon enough. Just a moment.
And then he won't learn a single thing from this interaction! (Astarion truly out here "like that sign can't stop me because I can't read.") he'll almost certainly try this again with someone else. ]