Astarion doesn't pull away from the touch this time. He allows Alucard's hand to settle on him, even when it is coupled with those words. Words that have a weight to them Astarion isn't sure he wants to contemplate. He tells himself Alucard is just manipulating him, the way Astarion would do with anyone else. That they're all in desperate need of allies and that things like sex and emotion and whatever this is make it more likely that people will stay by your side. He reminds himself over and over that, apology or not, Alucard still led him on and lied to him.
But something pulls at his heartstrings. Something knows Alucard is going to get hurt, if he is allowed to keep walking down this path. Normally that pain would mean nothing to him, but Astarion finds that even after everything, he does not want to hurt Alucard.
And Alucard did save his life.
What kind of repayment would it be, to let him light the fire of this dangerous thing that could explode on both of them? ]
Alucard...
[ He says his name softly, a gentle warning instead of the shove he normally gives those that get to close to him. ]
I can't be anything more than what I've already offered. That's all I have to give.
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Astarion doesn't pull away from the touch this time. He allows Alucard's hand to settle on him, even when it is coupled with those words. Words that have a weight to them Astarion isn't sure he wants to contemplate. He tells himself Alucard is just manipulating him, the way Astarion would do with anyone else. That they're all in desperate need of allies and that things like sex and emotion and whatever this is make it more likely that people will stay by your side. He reminds himself over and over that, apology or not, Alucard still led him on and lied to him.
But something pulls at his heartstrings. Something knows Alucard is going to get hurt, if he is allowed to keep walking down this path. Normally that pain would mean nothing to him, but Astarion finds that even after everything, he does not want to hurt Alucard.
And Alucard did save his life.
What kind of repayment would it be, to let him light the fire of this dangerous thing that could explode on both of them? ]
Alucard...
[ He says his name softly, a gentle warning instead of the shove he normally gives those that get to close to him. ]
I can't be anything more than what I've already offered. That's all I have to give.