[closed] 🐺 i know you're somewhere out there

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Who: Zack Fair & Friends
Status: Closed
Where: Where these threads happen.
What: A catch-all log for closed threads for December!
Warnings: Tba.

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[He's still not sure he deserves someone as amazing as G'raha is. He's never met someone who's grabbed his attention this fast before. Who's made him think about his life and the direction that it's gone? Made him want to grab onto something, be vulnerable, and be accepting of what's happened or hasn't happened. He still has some dark things to tell G'raha about himself. But even then he feels like it wouldn't be a difficult thing to share. At least. He hopes.

He quirks a grin in return and shifts so he can grab an arm around G'raha and so he can scoop him closer.]

You know, it just proves it right there. When you say I'm a good man, I can believe it. This is just lucky, then. This right here. I'm okay with this right here.

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Have you not believed it in the past?

[ He asks this question, for two reasons. He can understand not wanting to believe it. To deny goodness within. Guilt being the root cause of it. As Raha is held closer still, the other reason he asks... He wants to reassure Zack. Help him to believe it because no matter how dark the past might have been, Raha just knows that here were other circumstances.

A hand goes to Zack's cheek. G'raha's tail wraps about a leg. ]

Good, I should think. I am... Quite please with this. With you.

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[Fuck, G'raha is just too breathtaking. He has to admire that pretty face and those red eyes. Just take it all in for a second.]

I've tried to believe it in the past. But sometimes being good wasn't good enough. That's all.

[Try as Zack had to be as good as he could be and to do the right thing for the people who needed him... Being good wasn't enough. He still failed.]

It's okay.

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[ Ah, so that's it. Not being enough. Oh that is a feeling G'raha knows all but too well. All of the skills he has accumulated, all of the knowledge... It's because he believes he needs to be enough. To be worthy of sacrifices made on his behalf. ]

"That's all." While I am far too tired and now warm to question...

[ There's a yawn and G'raha is closing his eyes. Sleep is staring to settle in again. ]

Sometimes it is like that, but... You are enough, I've found.

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[Zack lets a laugh rumble through his chest. And he's just going to scoop G'raha to him a little closer. Hmm. Warm is right. Bed is warm. Cat boy is warm. This is enjoying life.]

Thanks, glad to hear it. [He smiles quietly in the darkening room.] Let's get some more sleep.

[No more talk about that for now. Sleeping is good.]

🎀

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[ No more talking. Plenty of time for that at a later point or even after waking.

He feels himself being pulled against Zack more. And before he even thinks about it too much, G'raha nuzzles under that chin and quietly rumbles.

Content. ]