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benedikta harman. ([personal profile] garudas) wrote in [community profile] escordvi2024-04-04 09:06 pm

closed 🪶⚡ in this world of ours, safe to be the one you are...

Who: Benedikta Harman & Cidolfus Telamon.
Status: Closed.
Where: Cid's apartment, crew island.
What: Cid's birthday, some quest stuff, a bounty goes sideways, and so does a certain conversation...
Warnings: The usual CidBenna stuff. :)

happy birthday, mister captain 🍰
otterly ridiculous 🦦
cid the menace
downburst ⛈️

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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-04-30 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
[There's a slight flinch at that, but he just bears through it. He knew she would be upset, rightfully so, yet...

This feels strange.

He doesn't know what, but he feels there's something else, that nagging "intuition" of his blaring. Tears and anger, yes, throw a fit, yes, denial, certainly, but this rage? The way she retreats away from him, guards herself as if he were an enemy instead. Does she really feel so betrayed be didn't tell her sooner? It was not something be really considered, but seeing her like this cuts a bit deeper than he expected.

So he takes another step forward.]


Look, I know I should have told you sooner, but how was I supposed to bring it up? Just go up to you one day and say, "Hey, I'm dead, too?"

[The words come out sharper than intended, so he bites it back a bit as the question that has been pressing his mind bursts out.]

How did you even find out?

[Surely Clive and the others would never dare say it in passing, but an accidental slip is not so out of the question. And if thinks back, he's certain he heard her roar Clive's name. But nothing is making sense, and he's caught so off guard on the back foot that he is struggling to make heads or tails of it while trying to deal with the impossible in front of him.]
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-04-30 03:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[So she did hear it from someone, but who? He wants to ask again, but she even tell him right now? And seeing her cornered—literally—pains him, but he needs her to listen. He has no idea if he can rectify this right now, but damn it all, he has to try.]

I did try, I wanted to—do you remember at the beach?

[A slow, small step.]

Before we turned into those animals?
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-04-30 03:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh hells.]

You think I liked keeping it from you?

[For a brief moment his patience falters, but again he manages to rein it in. He knows full well he's in the wrong here, but what's worse is he feels that bridge they had so painstakingly worked to build back together fraying, practically able to smell the burning embers that threaten to torch it completely. It was a fear he had that also prevented him from saying anything sooner—a fear that he would lose her all over again if she knew.

A fear that's becoming more evident in the way he looks at her as it's clear that's what's happening right now if he doesn't do something, but what the hell can he do?]


Benedikta, I'm sorry, truly, can we please just...sit down and talk about this better? I'll tell you everything, anything you want to hear.
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-04-30 04:09 pm (UTC)(link)
No, I don't.

[His voice weakens for a moment before he looks at her carefully.]

But you do.
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-04-30 04:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[Before he can tell her he did, that didn't he say he was trying and planned to tell her?? That he wasn't going to keep it a secret forever!? But she clearly wasn't listening, too stuck on the point that he didn't at all, and that—]

Who!?

[He has to shout over the wind as he looks at her.]

Who the hell told you??
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-04-30 04:47 pm (UTC)(link)
What?

[His eyes shoot wide at that, because he had not even had the faintest idea he could even communicate—]

Then—what happened to Joshua?
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-04-30 05:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[And there will be once again that stunned look of realization as he remembers...

...

They never told her.

Back when Joshua first revealed he was harboring Ultima's shadow, they all agreed that Barnabas was to never know lest it would put the young Dominant's life at risk. And unfortunately, that included Benedikta since she was allied with Barnabas at the time. It was a reasonable and very likely assumption that she would be quick to try and take Joshua to Barnabas, regardless if her reasons for staying with the bastard were the same as before or not. The point was she was with him.

But after Barnabas left, that was no longer an issue. However this is where time becomes the enemy, because while they never forgot about Ultima, they also didn't constantly think about it. It was sleeping, dormant, and once Benedikta finally joined him came to his side...

He honestly forgot that she had no idea. Perhaps he even was under the false assumption she knew or had been told. It was one of those strange phenomenon where because everyone else knew about it, one assumes others know as well. Not to mention, talking about Ultima or the like was never pleasant for them, and there had never been cause to bring up the topic.

Which is what leads them to where they are today, Cid quietly swearing under his breath.]


Fuck, I forgot—you didn't know.
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-04-30 09:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[Again he hears Ramuh roaring within him, warning him, but he didn't need the damn Eikon. He can see it clear as day, see clearly everything just crumbling apart and the rift between them widening between again.

Just like before.

He tries to move closer to her, but he can't, the winds repelling him as if determined to keep him back. Were he in better condition he'd be better able to withstand it, but as it is a particular stroke of wind hits his chest, and bites back the pain with a sharp breath as an arm clutches over his chest, staggering.

But he persist.

Dammit, he must—]


Benedikta, we didn't have a choice back then, you were with Barnabas! And then I just forgot—!
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-04-30 10:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[At least it's a simple question, but why does he feel like there's more to it?]

About Ultima in Joshua? Just us, the group—Clive, Jill, Dion. I don't know about Mid, but she likely does.
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-04-30 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's just a small sound frustration.]

Yes, we deliberately kept it from you in the beginning—you and Barnabas. But things changed and it's different now. It just had been long enough...

[His gaze lowers a bit.]

Things...became more natural that it felt as if you were already there, and I forget there are things you weren't aware of.

[Of course he knows that's not an excuse, that he's still at fault. How hard had he tried to warn her about Ultima before? How hard did he try to protect her only for it to fall through? Granted, there were further complications on whether Joshua himself would have wanted more people knowing, but it's something he should have at least discussed, especially when he witnessed Joshua's condition firsthand. He was so focused on the problem right in front of him, he completely missed the others that lingered around it.

To have it slip his mind so completely...]
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-05-01 12:08 am (UTC)(link)
[His expression hardens at that.]

I only lied about my death, that's it! And only because I was afraid of this[A wild gesture of his arm.]—happening!

Everything else I've been true to you!
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[personal profile] ramuhs 2024-05-01 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
[Again the wind makes him stagger, actually sliding him back. He can only imagine how this looks on the outside, but he's more focused on what is in front of him.]

Benna—!

[He tries to shout through the wind, tries to muster the strength he can to push against the wind and take those important steps towards her. If he can reach her—if he can just grab her, take her hand, force her to stay. He'll take whatever she throws at him, endure the biting, the yelling, the punching, whatever it is, he just can't—

But it's in that moment that she utters that scream and it's the sound of the chain snapping that echoes louder than the winds, and his had snaps up just in time for the pendant to hit against his chest. It's only thanks to his arm still held against it does it not fall into the floor, instead his hand quickly fumbling as his mind blanks, the roar of the winds and rumbling of thunder in his mind falling silent as he just stares at it, a more painful memory briefly super imposed over it.]


...No.

[No, no, not again—]

Benedikta, wait—!

[Face pale and the desperation loud and clear in his voice, with the last surge of strength he can muster he tries to rush towards her.]

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