closed 🪶⚡ i'll be the light to lead you home

[garudas]

Who: Cidolfus Telamon & Benedikta Harman.
Status: Closed.
Where: The Roost, The Farplane.
What: Cid and Benedikta move to a new house in the Roost. Event stuff later.
Warnings: The usual. :)

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[garudas]

[Those months before they finally reconciled and the regret that comes with it are something that will never, ever leave her, and she feels it so much more right now.]

... I should hope that your reasons are not the same?

[ramuhs]

[A small shake of his head.]

No...not quite...though perhaps it may ring similar in some ways.

[A small exhale.]

For so long I only kept things to myself, so that already made it difficult to want to put a burden on anyone else. But for you...

[His eyes flit to hers.]

I was afraid that it would be too much. That it would...crush you and scare you off. You had already been through so much because of me, I didn't want to hurt you anymore.

[garudas]

[Hearing this, a part of her can't help but wonder if Ultima knew this and forced them to see all of these things because he knew that it would gnaw at them from the inside long after he was gone.]

You know... it hurts just as much when you keep me out simply because you are afraid you might frighten me.

[ramuhs]

[His eyes close with a low sigh.]

I know. And I know it's hypocritical of me when I try to have you do the same.

[garudas]

[She brings her hand to his cheek, forcing him to look at her when he opens his eyes. Filling his vision so that he will see nothing but the promise that fills every one of her features.]

You know that I will not run from you. Not anymore.

[Not just because she is afraid of what will happen if she does, not because she is afraid of being alone again, but because she does not want to. Because she wants to stay by his side.]

And I will remind you a hundred times over until you understand that. [A small laugh against his lips.] And you know me... I am not a patient woman.

[ramuhs]

[A small smile forms at that along with a quiet laugh of his own.]

Aye, I know that very well.

[His gaze then softens.]

But you've done well to remind me so far. Difficult as it may be, I do know...and I do believe in you. I wouldn't have told you so much as I have if I didn't otherwise.

[garudas]

Good.

[She presses a kiss to the center of his brow, and then to the tip of his nose, and he'll feel her fingers skim lightly over his skin, over those same scars she has been revering since they lay back down in bed.]

... Because I do not want you living with that god in your head for any longer.

[ramuhs]

Nor do I.

[His lips briefly meet hers before his hand slowly runs up her spine to her shoulders, his expression falling a bit.]

But what of you?

[garudas]

[She flinches, her shoulders going stiff when his hand runs over her shoulders. That self-consciousness returns, and she wishes that she could grab hold of the sheets and pull them over herself to hide the new blemishes that mar her skin.]

... I think it will take some getting used to.

[Her voice is quiet, and she drops her gaze away.]

But I will not let it stop me anymore.

[ramuhs]

[There will be that buzz of warmth as he presses his fingertips against her skin around the area, letting it seep through as he slowly massages it again just like he did in the bath.]

And you know you can come to me.

[garudas]

[A soft, content sigh falls past her lips when the heat reaches beneath her skin, her head falling back when she feels her neck give way beneath it. Feeling this... feeling him is exactly what she needs.]

I do.

[Her eyes slowly blink open to look at him, and a fear swims in her gaze.]

I... do worry that the nightmares might return again.

[ramuhs]

If they do, I'll be here for you.

[He continues to gently caress and massage her before an idea forms.]

Perhaps...if I wake up and notice, I could use my levin again like I did before.

[garudas]

[She tilts her head at him.]

You mean to reach her...?

[ramuhs]

Reach you.

[A light smile as he raises a hand to cup her cheek.]

Just to remind you you're not alone.

[garudas]

[The realization is clear on her face, and she reflects his smile when his hand finds her cheek.]

I never am these days...

[Even when he isn't physically there... Her hand goes to the pendant around her neck, and her eyes close.]

But I would like for you to hold me tighter... just for tonight...

[ramuhs]

As if I would have it any other way.

[He smiles then, his lips finding hers as he pulls them back down with his arms tight around her.]

But it won't be just tonight.

[His voice is soft against her lips as he gives her his warmth, legs entangled together.]

[garudas]

Every night...

[She corrects herself as she lays beside him, and she kisses him again, sighing against his lips.]

After all this, I just... want to go home...

[ramuhs]

As do I.

[A low sigh as he kisses her gently first on the lips and then on her nose and cheek and her brow just above her eye.]

Suppose the move was aptly timed, hm?

[garudas]

[Her nose crinkles with a smile when he peppers those kisses across her face.]

Was it? Or perhaps not... I feel like we have not had the proper time to truly live in it yet.

[ramuhs]

Hmm, true, but that just means this will be another memory to build upon it.

[garudas]

Good memories from here on out, I hope...

[She breathes out an exhausted sigh.]

Today being the last of the bad ones.

[ramuhs]

It will be.

[He gently strokes her hair as he pulls her closer to him.]

Let's get some rest, hm? Should be back at the Roost on the morrow.

[garudas]

[Her pout disappears into his shoulder when she's pulled close.]

We could go back now if we wished to...

[Though she knows that's a tall order for the Captain.]

[ramuhs]

[A quiet laugh at that because yes.]

Ah, I wish, but alas I do have my own responsibilities.

[Unfortunately he does have his duties to perform, and he is also worried about the others.]

[garudas]

[She knew already, but that doesn't change her wish to have their warm bed and the fire crackling with him beside her, without all the noise of the ship and the sea surrounding them. Just peaceful silence filled only with the sound of his breathing.

She pulls back so that she can look at him, her finger gliding along his cheek and the curve of his jaw.]

You may perform them for as long as we are on this ship, but after that...

[A tender kiss pressed to his lips.]

After that, you rest.