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- aether,
- alucard emery,
- ashelia b'nargin dalmasca,
- ashi,
- astarion,
- balthier,
- barnabas tharmr,
- benedikta harman,
- cidolfus telamon,
- clive rosfield,
- cloud strife,
- dion lesage,
- eizen,
- eustace,
- faris scherwiz,
- fenris,
- graha tia,
- jarlaxe baenre,
- jill warrick,
- joshua rosfield,
- kotori iida,
- ky kiske,
- lyney,
- march 7th,
- miriam,
- nanaki,
- nimona,
- professor turo,
- reaper,
- reno,
- rikku,
- roxas,
- sorey,
- tifa lockhart,
- toge inumaki,
- velvet crowe,
- xenk yendar,
- zack fair
« test sail »
Welcome to the first Test Drive Meme for
escordvi! Anyone can participate in the test drive, regardless of invite eligibility. Just keep in mind that only those who have received invitations from the mods can actually reserve on August 25th and apply on September 1st. Our Interest Check can be found here.
For your toplevel, please include the following: Character Name | Canon | Armada Choice. If undecided, put "Undecided" for the Armada.
For everyone's convenience, TDM threads can be carried over in game if you wish! If you are still unsure which armada to place your character, you can play it a bit loose and vague in the TDM and make retroactive changes if you carryover the threads. We'll have more armada focused prompts in the opening log in September. The log itself is set to cover the next two weeks, until the end of the month. Characters will appear at random intervals during this time rather than all at once, so players have some more flexibility on how much more adjusted they are for someone else.
IMPORTANT REMINDER FOR MAGIC USERS!! All magic abilities will be "sealed" until characters get their tattoo from the Inkwave parlor in Eltrut. That means no magic on the starter ships before docking.
We do require TDM threads for samples for our application!
If you have any question about the TDM, comment here. If you have questions about the game in general, please comment to the Game Info.
Avatar: The Last Airbender - Mai | Undecided
Azur Lane - Bremerton | Paladin
Azur Lane - Enterprise | Paladin
Baldur’s Gate 3 - Astarion | Corsair
Bloodstained: Ritual of the Night - Miriam | Paladin
Critical Role - Percy DeRolo | Paladin
Dragon Age 2 - Fenris | Corsair
Dungeons and Dragons: Honour Among Thieves - Xenk Yendar | Paladin
Fate/Grand Order - Edward Teach | Corsair
Final Fantasy V - Faris Scherwiz | Corsair
Final Fantasy VII - Aerith Gainsborough | Undecided
Final Fantasy VII - Cloud Strife | Paladin
Final Fantasy VII - Nanaki/Red XIII | Paladin
Final Fantasy VII - Reno | Corsair
Final Fantasy VII - Zack Fair | Paladin
Final Fantasy VIII - Laguna Loire | Paladin
Final Fantasy X-2 - Rikku | Undecided
Final Fantasy XII - Ashe | Corsair
Final Fantasy XIV - G’raha Tia | Corsair
Final Fantasy XVI - Benedikta Harman | Corsair
Final Fantasy XVI - Cidolfus Telamon | Corsair
Final Fantasy XVI - Clive Rosfield | Corsair
Final Fantasy XVI - Dion Lesage | Paladin
Final Fantasy XVI - Gav | Undecided
Final Fantasy XVI - Midadol Telamon | Corsair
Final Fantasy: Type-0 - Rem | Corsair
Forgotten Realms - Jarlaxle Baenre | Corsair
Friends at the Table: Twilight Mirage - Morning’s Observation | Corsair
Genshin Impact - Lyney | Corsair
Genshin Impact - Wanderer | Undecided
Good Omens - Aziraphale | Undecided
Granblue Fantasy - Eustace | Corsair
Guilty Gear - Ky Kiske | Corsair
Honkai Star Rail - March 7th | Paladin
Jujutsu Kaisen - Toge Inumaki | Corsair
Kingdom Hearts - Roxas | Paladin
The Legend of Zelda: Wind Waker - Tetra | Paladin
Nimona - Nimona | Paladin
One Piece - Roronoa Zoro | Corsair
Overwatch - Reaper | Corsair
The Owl House - Gus Porter | Undecided
Pokemon - Professor Turo | Paladin
Samurai Jack - Ashi | Paladin
Shades of Magic - Alucard Emery | Paladin
Skies of Arcadia - Fina | Corsair
Star Wars Jedi: Survivor - Cal Kestis | Undecided
Stormlight Archive - Shallan Davar | Corsair
Sweetness and Lightning - Kotori Iida | Paladin
Tales of Berseria - Eizen | Corsair
Tales of Berseria - Velvet Crow | Corsair
Tales of Zestiria - Sorey | Undecided
Welcome Home - Julie Joyful | Corsair
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For your toplevel, please include the following: Character Name | Canon | Armada Choice. If undecided, put "Undecided" for the Armada.
For everyone's convenience, TDM threads can be carried over in game if you wish! If you are still unsure which armada to place your character, you can play it a bit loose and vague in the TDM and make retroactive changes if you carryover the threads. We'll have more armada focused prompts in the opening log in September. The log itself is set to cover the next two weeks, until the end of the month. Characters will appear at random intervals during this time rather than all at once, so players have some more flexibility on how much more adjusted they are for someone else.
IMPORTANT REMINDER FOR MAGIC USERS!! All magic abilities will be "sealed" until characters get their tattoo from the Inkwave parlor in Eltrut. That means no magic on the starter ships before docking.
We do require TDM threads for samples for our application!
If you have any question about the TDM, comment here. If you have questions about the game in general, please comment to the Game Info.
TOPLEVEL DIRECTORY (Updated August 28)
Avatar: The Last Airbender - Mai | Undecided
Azur Lane - Bremerton | Paladin
Azur Lane - Enterprise | Paladin
Baldur’s Gate 3 - Astarion | Corsair
Bloodstained: Ritual of the Night - Miriam | Paladin
Critical Role - Percy DeRolo | Paladin
Dragon Age 2 - Fenris | Corsair
Dungeons and Dragons: Honour Among Thieves - Xenk Yendar | Paladin
Fate/Grand Order - Edward Teach | Corsair
Final Fantasy V - Faris Scherwiz | Corsair
Final Fantasy VII - Aerith Gainsborough | Undecided
Final Fantasy VII - Cloud Strife | Paladin
Final Fantasy VII - Nanaki/Red XIII | Paladin
Final Fantasy VII - Reno | Corsair
Final Fantasy VII - Zack Fair | Paladin
Final Fantasy VIII - Laguna Loire | Paladin
Final Fantasy X-2 - Rikku | Undecided
Final Fantasy XII - Ashe | Corsair
Final Fantasy XIV - G’raha Tia | Corsair
Final Fantasy XVI - Benedikta Harman | Corsair
Final Fantasy XVI - Cidolfus Telamon | Corsair
Final Fantasy XVI - Clive Rosfield | Corsair
Final Fantasy XVI - Dion Lesage | Paladin
Final Fantasy XVI - Gav | Undecided
Final Fantasy XVI - Midadol Telamon | Corsair
Final Fantasy: Type-0 - Rem | Corsair
Forgotten Realms - Jarlaxle Baenre | Corsair
Friends at the Table: Twilight Mirage - Morning’s Observation | Corsair
Genshin Impact - Lyney | Corsair
Genshin Impact - Wanderer | Undecided
Good Omens - Aziraphale | Undecided
Granblue Fantasy - Eustace | Corsair
Guilty Gear - Ky Kiske | Corsair
Honkai Star Rail - March 7th | Paladin
Jujutsu Kaisen - Toge Inumaki | Corsair
Kingdom Hearts - Roxas | Paladin
The Legend of Zelda: Wind Waker - Tetra | Paladin
Nimona - Nimona | Paladin
One Piece - Roronoa Zoro | Corsair
Overwatch - Reaper | Corsair
The Owl House - Gus Porter | Undecided
Pokemon - Professor Turo | Paladin
Samurai Jack - Ashi | Paladin
Shades of Magic - Alucard Emery | Paladin
Skies of Arcadia - Fina | Corsair
Star Wars Jedi: Survivor - Cal Kestis | Undecided
Stormlight Archive - Shallan Davar | Corsair
Sweetness and Lightning - Kotori Iida | Paladin
Tales of Berseria - Eizen | Corsair
Tales of Berseria - Velvet Crow | Corsair
Tales of Zestiria - Sorey | Undecided
Welcome Home - Julie Joyful | Corsair
STARTER SHIPS: ORIENTATION
There are two ships that serve as starting ships for each armada: Stormbringer for the Corsairs, and Royal Fortune for the Paladins. There are various ways new arrivals—or riftfarers as they will be called, among other creative names—will appear on or by these ships.
However the new riftfarers arrive, they will be poorly clothed, practically rags or loose uniforms depending on the ship. Fortunately, veteran crewmates will guide them, escorting them to a room with a strange typewriter in it. After typing their name, the typewriter will magically continue and type by itself at a fast pace until it dings and rolls out the paper. This paper will have the following information:
After that, the crewmate will do their best to explain the basics of how they got here, what's going on, and what they'll need to do to live in Escordvi while they are here, giving them a small leather pouch with money. They will be reaching Eltrut soon, so the crewmate will suggest they look around, meet the others who have arrived. Even from their distance, they will be able to see the giant sea turtle that serves as Eltrut's leviathan.
🚪 Random room. It could be empty, filled with crates or supplies; down in the hull where the livestock are kept; have the luck to awaken in a bed...or the misfortune of that bed already occupied; somewhere in the kitchens; in the bathroom—any room! Now let's hope the doors can open or someone may have to try and ask for help. Or jump through the porthole if there is one and it's above water.
⛵ On deck. If not in the ship itself, another possible spot to wake up to is somewhere on the maindeck. If they're lucky, they're on the deck itself. More unfortunate souls may find themselves caught in the sails or netting, the crow's nest, or on the top of the masts. Someone should be able to help, right? Or catch.
🌊 In the water. The most unlucky sods will find themselves appearing in mid-air just past the ship and plummeting straight into the water. Good news, there's always someone on the look out for such a thing and calls for help to throw a lifesaver get the rowboat will be made. Are there sharks? Well... ...Are there?
⛵ On deck. If not in the ship itself, another possible spot to wake up to is somewhere on the maindeck. If they're lucky, they're on the deck itself. More unfortunate souls may find themselves caught in the sails or netting, the crow's nest, or on the top of the masts. Someone should be able to help, right? Or catch.
🌊 In the water. The most unlucky sods will find themselves appearing in mid-air just past the ship and plummeting straight into the water. Good news, there's always someone on the look out for such a thing and calls for help to throw a lifesaver get the rowboat will be made. Are there sharks? Well... ...Are there?
However the new riftfarers arrive, they will be poorly clothed, practically rags or loose uniforms depending on the ship. Fortunately, veteran crewmates will guide them, escorting them to a room with a strange typewriter in it. After typing their name, the typewriter will magically continue and type by itself at a fast pace until it dings and rolls out the paper. This paper will have the following information:
• Name and Shellphone ID (journalname)
• Armada (Corsair or Paladin, will match the starter ship)
• Cabin Number for their personal cabin on the starter ship
• Apartment Address for their personal address at their base armada location
• A basic map of the starting locations in Eltrut, including written directions (continued in the Eltrut section)
• A basic map of where they can find a chest with their original clothes and belongings (this will be different for every person and will be anywhere either on the starter ship or on Eltrut—players can be creative here).
• Armada (Corsair or Paladin, will match the starter ship)
• Cabin Number for their personal cabin on the starter ship
• Apartment Address for their personal address at their base armada location
• A basic map of the starting locations in Eltrut, including written directions (continued in the Eltrut section)
• A basic map of where they can find a chest with their original clothes and belongings (this will be different for every person and will be anywhere either on the starter ship or on Eltrut—players can be creative here).
After that, the crewmate will do their best to explain the basics of how they got here, what's going on, and what they'll need to do to live in Escordvi while they are here, giving them a small leather pouch with money. They will be reaching Eltrut soon, so the crewmate will suggest they look around, meet the others who have arrived. Even from their distance, they will be able to see the giant sea turtle that serves as Eltrut's leviathan.
ELTRUT: FIRST GLIMPSE
After reaching the port of Eltrut, several birdfolk will appear and happily greet all the new arrivals from both starter ships. Here it doesn't matter which side they are affiliated with, as long as they keep those swords and weapons sheathed and not pointed at each other's throats. The birdfolk will even act as guides, showing them the main places they should visit and give them a visitor's map to help guide them.
It's a lot to take in for sure, with the port city bustling with all walks of life. Not only do they have both armadas mingling with each other, there are different races and species from all over Escordvi gathered here. It's not just humans, which many riftfarers always seem to be surprised about. There are also plenty of veteran riftfarers who will gladly give some advice and even share stories of their world. Maybe some are familiar.
After finding their belongings, exploring the town, and meeting other people, being able to just sit back and enjoy a drink and warm meal will be in order. While there are plenty of places to choose from, the Minstrel and Cask will be the top recommended tavern for all newcomers to visit at least once. Great drinks, great food, and can learn a lot from the patrons or meet more people.
Of course, as expected of a highly popular tavern, it's not always peaceful. A man will ask travelers what they want to do with their life. Clearly drunk, he only accepts answers that hint at wanting to find riches. If told this he will give out a treasure map. But if told anything else, he'll put up a fight, hoping to deliver a black eye. Those who do receive the map will be sorely disappointed—it will lead them down a long, winding, circuitous path around town and end at a random outhouse, likely occupied and certainly stinking to high heavens. There's likely some kind of moral here, but at some point, others who have been duped will return to the tavern to sling their fists around.
Looks like another tavern brawl for the night.
🐚 Microshell. The first stop that is encouraged will be Microshell, the main store to acquire their own personal Shellphone. The paper they received on their starter ship will have their ID and the staff at the store will set them up, explaining how the device and the network works.
✒️ Inkwave, Tattoo Parlor. The next stop is Inkwave, a tattoo parlor run by a very burly but friendly octopus, Knistej. Here everyone receives their own unique magic tattoo, allowing anyone to cast specific single element spells and other magic. Note: tattoos are required before anyone will be able to use their original magical abilities.
📜 MANTA office. The final stop is the MANTA office, where all the request, mission, and task notices are posted. Each armada has their own branch office for armada specific notices as well. A great place to find jobs to earn some cash so they don't stay a hobo forever.
✒️ Inkwave, Tattoo Parlor. The next stop is Inkwave, a tattoo parlor run by a very burly but friendly octopus, Knistej. Here everyone receives their own unique magic tattoo, allowing anyone to cast specific single element spells and other magic. Note: tattoos are required before anyone will be able to use their original magical abilities.
📜 MANTA office. The final stop is the MANTA office, where all the request, mission, and task notices are posted. Each armada has their own branch office for armada specific notices as well. A great place to find jobs to earn some cash so they don't stay a hobo forever.
It's a lot to take in for sure, with the port city bustling with all walks of life. Not only do they have both armadas mingling with each other, there are different races and species from all over Escordvi gathered here. It's not just humans, which many riftfarers always seem to be surprised about. There are also plenty of veteran riftfarers who will gladly give some advice and even share stories of their world. Maybe some are familiar.
After finding their belongings, exploring the town, and meeting other people, being able to just sit back and enjoy a drink and warm meal will be in order. While there are plenty of places to choose from, the Minstrel and Cask will be the top recommended tavern for all newcomers to visit at least once. Great drinks, great food, and can learn a lot from the patrons or meet more people.
Of course, as expected of a highly popular tavern, it's not always peaceful. A man will ask travelers what they want to do with their life. Clearly drunk, he only accepts answers that hint at wanting to find riches. If told this he will give out a treasure map. But if told anything else, he'll put up a fight, hoping to deliver a black eye. Those who do receive the map will be sorely disappointed—it will lead them down a long, winding, circuitous path around town and end at a random outhouse, likely occupied and certainly stinking to high heavens. There's likely some kind of moral here, but at some point, others who have been duped will return to the tavern to sling their fists around.
Looks like another tavern brawl for the night.
QUESTS
For those who want to try their hand at some quests, there are a few that would do well for newcomers. Teaming up is of course encouraged, no matter what the affiliation. You can assume they acquired some kind of ship for the quests out at sea, either the starter ship or some other ship heading out there.
There is a traveling food ship (think food truck but on the water) that has been going around challenging ships to their extraordinary Hornswaggle's Spicy Squid Eating Challenge. If participants can scarf down a prepared three-pound bowl of exceptionally spicy ghost pepper squid and rice, they will win their meal for free as well as a crate of dried spicy squid for their ship's stores. If participants fail, they will have to pay for the meal and the crate.
...Careful, are some of the squid tentacles still moving?
Rumour has it that certain types of coral reefs contain unique properties that can make you more alluring to the one you desire, but no one is sure what the side effects are. Test this out by trying to crunch into chunks of coral reef pieces to see if there are any added effects on your body. Hopefully, they don't ruin your teeth in the meantime.
Oh, and you have to find the correct coral reef too! Red chunks seem to make you more affectionate towards others, while blue chunks seem to make you more volatile towards others. Eaters, beware!
Giant sea slugs tend to only attack ships if they feel threatened but are otherwise peaceful creatures. They're about the size of a large wild cat. They also secrete a slime that contains strong disinfectant properties. This thick slime is highly sought after for its ability to heal wounds cleanly, so kill them and collect as much slime as possible.
Seagulls can be a pain to most ships. Yet, seagulls that have evolved to be violently carnivorous can be even worse. These new birds, effectively named sharkgulls, have been seen attacking ships and ports alike. They are big enough to eat small children in one gulp or will do their best to eat full-grown humans after they've ripped them to bite-sized shreds. Beware and kill them before they can kill you!
A merchant's ship has crashed upon an outcropping of rocks after being lured in by a group of rogue sirens. These captivating creatures possess the power to ensnare their prey with their enchanting voices, luring unsuspecting souls into the depths to meet the grim fate of drowning.
Search for the missing ship and help rescue the captive sailors before it's too late! You will be supplied with special earplugs to muffle out the siren's voices so be careful to keep your ears effectively plugged. You don't want to succumb to the siren's bloodlust yourself.
Any sailors or rescuers affected by the siren's song can be treated with a harpy's potion that can reverse the song's effect. Or tie up the afflicted for twenty-four hours to wait out the effects.

Spicy Squid Eating Challenge
Eltrut PortThere is a traveling food ship (think food truck but on the water) that has been going around challenging ships to their extraordinary Hornswaggle's Spicy Squid Eating Challenge. If participants can scarf down a prepared three-pound bowl of exceptionally spicy ghost pepper squid and rice, they will win their meal for free as well as a crate of dried spicy squid for their ship's stores. If participants fail, they will have to pay for the meal and the crate.
...Careful, are some of the squid tentacles still moving?

Coral Reef Snacks
Eltrut Rumour has it that certain types of coral reefs contain unique properties that can make you more alluring to the one you desire, but no one is sure what the side effects are. Test this out by trying to crunch into chunks of coral reef pieces to see if there are any added effects on your body. Hopefully, they don't ruin your teeth in the meantime.
Oh, and you have to find the correct coral reef too! Red chunks seem to make you more affectionate towards others, while blue chunks seem to make you more volatile towards others. Eaters, beware!

Giant Sea Slugs
Starter ShipsGiant sea slugs tend to only attack ships if they feel threatened but are otherwise peaceful creatures. They're about the size of a large wild cat. They also secrete a slime that contains strong disinfectant properties. This thick slime is highly sought after for its ability to heal wounds cleanly, so kill them and collect as much slime as possible.

Killer Sharkgulls
Eltrut port and shipsSeagulls can be a pain to most ships. Yet, seagulls that have evolved to be violently carnivorous can be even worse. These new birds, effectively named sharkgulls, have been seen attacking ships and ports alike. They are big enough to eat small children in one gulp or will do their best to eat full-grown humans after they've ripped them to bite-sized shreds. Beware and kill them before they can kill you!

Siren's Serenade
Out at SeaA merchant's ship has crashed upon an outcropping of rocks after being lured in by a group of rogue sirens. These captivating creatures possess the power to ensnare their prey with their enchanting voices, luring unsuspecting souls into the depths to meet the grim fate of drowning.
Search for the missing ship and help rescue the captive sailors before it's too late! You will be supplied with special earplugs to muffle out the siren's voices so be careful to keep your ears effectively plugged. You don't want to succumb to the siren's bloodlust yourself.
Any sailors or rescuers affected by the siren's song can be treated with a harpy's potion that can reverse the song's effect. Or tie up the afflicted for twenty-four hours to wait out the effects.
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I hope that for you as well, my friend. Such unmitigated cruelty cannot be allowed to go unanswered.
[ He'd march over to Baldur's Gate himself, if he could. If he could get in the door anyway, there's so much corruption there -- but killing an evil vampire? That's as black and white as it gets. ]
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Astarion laughs, cold and short at Xenk's comment. It was better when they were talking about his allies, about his adventures. This topic isn't a comfortable one. ]
You don't even know the half of it.
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Yet Xenk can tell something is wrong, or perhaps that this topic is painful for him. It's clear in how wrong his laugh sounds, how pained. Even Xenk can tell. ]
Indeed.
[ He doesn't know! And Astarion said not to ask, so Xenk will take another sip of his tea. ]
Do you wish to continue discussing the ways with you wish to destroy your tormentor, or would you prefer I change the subject?
[ My guy, my dude..... Xenk Yendar, ladies and gentlemen. ]
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But it was supposed to be an opening. He was willing to tell Xenk more. To talk about how things had been with Cazador. Astarion needs the song and dance of the conversation, though. He needs help to coax these words from his lips. They're not easy to give on their own. ]
Lets change the subject.
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He nods, accepting his decision, poor though it may be. ]
You freed the land of its curse and traveled to Baldur's Gate, correct? Or were you spirited here before you could enter the city proper?
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We've been solving random people's problems instead of getting on with it. [ he scrunches his face in distaste. Helping people! Imagine! ]
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Gosh, did Xenk do something wrong?? Hm. Better focus on that second part. ]
Have you? It sounds as though you would rather not.
[ Which is curious, because Xenk knows Astarion is kind. He just doesn't like to show it. So who, or what, is forcing his hand? ]
Yet you do not seem truly frustrated by this fact.
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[ He does not want to help everyone! Stop going into random people's houses and collecting clown parts this is none of our damn business. ]
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[ Somehow, this makes Xenk smile. Astarion helping people, just for the sake of it? That's nice. Xenk sips his tea. ]
A great city like Baldur's Gate has no end to those who need aid, I'm sure. Even should you procure the aid of the Harpers, I have heard many tales of the city's dangers and strife.
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[ In other words, he's part of the problem. Or was. If he's not careful, he could be again. ]
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Yet the spawn are victims as well, as you have said. They do not have the freedom to turn against this Cazador's orders.
[ There you go, he said his name! It feels better than "your master," that would just be insulting. ]
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That doesn't bring back all the people they've killed.
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No, it does not. But to punish them would only create pain for the sake of pain. It is not justice, for the true blame lies not with them.
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[ There's an edge to his voice, now, dangerous and dark. ]
If our paths had crossed in Faerun, before, you would have put me down on sight. No doubt justifying it by claiming you were ending my suffering.
[ a beat and then he looks away and out the window, at the sea, and the slowly setting sun, bathing the sky in reds and oranges mirrored in the water below. ]
Maybe you would have been. But I would have still been dead.
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Astarion isn't wrong. Upon arrival, Xenk had been aggressive towards Astarion. He had sense the man's nature and smell the scent of undeath on him. He does not show mercy to monsters, he enacts Tyr's will and fulfills his oath as a true Paladin of Devotion.
Yet, he did not act blindly. Even upon meeting Astarion, he probed for answers. He sought the truth beneath the fangs, beneath the façade of false amicability. He can't lie to him, that's not what he deserves. Better a bitter truth than a lie. ]
Not on sight. Not unless you were threatening an innocent person.
[ He turns to watch the sunset. Even in a strange new land, the colors bleed from red to blue, clouds glowing yellow and red. It's a lovely sight. ]
Meeting you has changed my perspective. Knowing how long you have suffered, I most surely could have justified it, as you said. But taking the choice of life or death away from you now would be an unspeakable act.
[ His head hurts with the morality of it. This gray stuff is really not him. ]
What you are should not define your life. I, of all people, should follow this doctrine.
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[ Kill the spawn, or break your oath for failing to protect the innocents, right? ]
You keep treating me like I'm this good person, and I'm not.
[ His voice quivers, though it would be hard for anyone (much less Xenk) to tell if it is anger or anxiety or something else entirely. ]
I have done unspeakable things. The person you see when you look at me isn't real.
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It's not the same. A vampire's hold over his spawns is absolute. Xenk's Oath? Well, he'd never willingly break it. He wouldn't. But unlike Astarion, he has a choice. ]
It is always my choice. When I kill in service of my Oath. I do so with open eyes. Any blood that is shed is on my hands alone.
[ Astarion doesn't have the same luxury. All the terrible things, all the people he's hurt... that he still carries his guilt after 200 years speaks to his goodness. That he wishes to be seen as something evil is perhaps the greatest proof that he is not. ]
This was not the case for you. And while it is true that you did, and were forced to do, was not right... in my travels, I have learned that being good is not always right.
[ Damn, you kiss Tyr with that mouth? But he hasn't said anything unlawful, his Oath still sings in his heart. Astarion is good. He's misguided, and in pain, and possibly selfish at times, but deep down, Xenk knows. He just knows. ]
The person I see is someone who has suffered the very worst this world has to offer, but who seeks to yet hold the light. Someone who complains that his companions waste time in aiding people, yet who has not once stepped away from a responsibility he did not ask for.
[ You told him your tales and you made it worse for yourself here, Astarion. Now Xenk knows you're an adventurer, vampire or no. ]
You need not follow my example to carve goodness into this world. Your past need not be free of sin for your freedom to be deserved. And should I have killed you when we met, or had we met otherwise... it would have been right, but it would not have been good.
[ Which is a big deal for him to admit!! I wrote right and good so many times I hope this makes sense #talkingtoXenksucks ]
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It's all exhausting. He should know better than to bring up something like this, when Xenk is so willing to say so much. He can't just make him upset or shake him with his words.
But there's something in particular that really hits him. Your past need not be free of sin for your freedom to be deserved. Was that what he thought? Was Xenk right?
Is this what it's like to feel seen? ]
Don't come complaining to me, when your faith is misplaced.
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Astarion is his friend. He is someone who understands the burden he bears. He is someone who has never had freedom, who was mistreated and enthralled, but who still, deep down, bears the seed of something good. For if he didn't, he wouldn't be so insistent -- he wouldn't push Xenk away, for his own good.
Ultimately, he cares. And no matter what his life was before, he has a new opportunity now. Xenk keeps his eyes cast to the horizon, complete and total certainty in his voice as he says: ]
I will not. For I do not believe it will be.
[ But he does turn to pour himself some more tea. ]
Regardless, how I treat you is my choice. Just as I am choosing to spend this evening by your side.
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Especially since it's so easy to take what Xenk says as flirting. He grins, and taps Xenk's foot with his foot under the table. ]
Oh, is that what you're doing? Spending the evening "by my side"?
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Yes? That is what I said.
[ He's totally missing the context here. Better clue him in. ]
We are enjoying the sunset together, are we not?
[ Buddy, Xenk, is this kind of a date? ]
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[ he can't do it...Xenk will just end up saying something too real.... ]
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They are enjoying the sunset together. It's nice. Spending time with Astarion is nice. They're friends!!! ]
Good.
[ Xenk smiles a fool's smile. He gazes back at the sunset. ]
Even here, the sun sets as it does in Faerun. It's beautiful.
[ But the company is better. He doesn't say that though. He's not really sure why, but it just feels better in his head, unsaid. ]
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It's nice to see, again.
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He's just thinking about sunsets, and how Astarion didn't see one for 200 years. And how that makes his slow-beating heart ache. ]
Is it as you remember?
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im just gonna do a little cw unhealthy relationships to sex
oh astarion wait till you see my reverse card
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Oh this is nsfw now sorry flat viewers
ah shit I totally forgot I'm sorry flat view
It's me im flat view
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I'm putting another spoiler warning
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cw: references to sexual assault
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